Random thoughts from a pregnant woman...

I am due for a post (probably a few), and today's been a good health day for me, which is rare. So I have been thinking I should take advantage of this day while I am feeling, for the most part fairly well and write about what else but being pregnant. Hey, now there's a HOT topic! Especially for all us women that are either pregnant right now, have been pregnant and have 1 or more critters (That's what a nurse called my kids when I went in for my first checkup. She said, "So how many critters do you have?" uh, critters??) or those that just had a baby, and jokingly say, "I never want to that again!" and we all know what happens... before you know it, you’re pregnant again! :)

Some of you know my issues with pregnancy. Let's just say I am not a BIG fan. Sure the outcome is wonderful, and even the process of a baby developing is a miracle in itself! I found this picture and thought it was perfect. Children really are a gift from God.

So, I don't want to complain but I do want to talk about it and maybe someone else does too. Everyone goes through different things during their pregnancy (ies) and delivery, some worse than others, but we all have a story. So I thought I would share mine.

First of all, I do feel extremely blessed that the Lord would allow me to have two sweet girls to raise and that I can be sealed to them even after this life. They are such a joy in my life. My life would not be complete without them. They do the cutest things.... and also the grossest, but I try not to recall THOSE to memory if I can help it. haha. Though it's not always easy to raise kids, it's MOST definitely worth it. Just a moment ago, Avery walked into the room and pronounced that she was hungry by yelling, “giggle, giggle, giggle!!!" Which always makes me laugh! (Read down to previous post if that doesn't make sense to you.) And today Madi had a conversation with Ryan as he was heading to school that just made my heart melt.

Madi with much enthusiasm said, "Dad, I have a great idea!"

Ryan: "What's that Madi?"

Madi: "Well, how ab'ut if you stay home from school today and stay here with me. Isn't that a great idea, Dad?!"

I really do have so much to be grateful for that during my days of endless throwing up I try and think about those blessings. But believe me, it doesn't always work.

Monday was a really rough day for me. I threw up well over ten/fifteen times, lost count after awhile, and after one session of throwing up, I was laying there on the bed trying to catch my breath, blow my nose, wipe my eyes and grab a piece of gum to get the flavor of....well I shouldn't tell you that, you might want to barf yourself, let's just say it was gross. Nasty beyond all description. But as I was lying there I thought, I just want to die! (Of course not really! Don't worry, I wont.) But at that moment, death sounded a heck of a lot easier! I even recall telling Ryan, "I just want to die!" when I was pregnant with Avery and had thrown up 25 times in 3 hours, and I remember him saying, "No, don't say that, you'll be fine." But under his breath I am sure he was saying, "but I know I would, if I were you..."

Thankfully, I didn't die that day. :) And was just hospitalized with three IV's and medication that seemed to be a gift right from heaven. Nor did I die this last Monday (obviously;). I have been able to take Zofram. It's a pretty expensive drug, usually costing somewhere between $50-$80 a pill. They now have a generic kind that's only $22 a pill so that's been a blessing, as we have had to pay out of pocket for them. Zofram is a drug they use for people that have cancer and get really sick with Chemotherapy treatments. They also give it to pregnant women who, like me or worse cases, can't help but loose 5- 15 pounds during the first three months of pregnancy because of throwing up and the lack of wanting to eat. I have always had 5- 10 pounds to lose since having Avery, and could never get it off, until recently. So I am grateful that I am finally down to what I was. Of course it won't last long as later in my pregnancy I seem to gain double in the 2nd and 3rd trimester and eventually will look something like this poor woman:

Ouch.

So for the moment let me just rejoice in my weight loss, even if it's just for a moment AND even if it’s not the way I would actually want to lose the weight. But it's the little things that matter right?

It's funny as I am sharing my thoughts, feelings and stories or maybe more like complaining about them, (I hope not too much) I can picture my dad with his littlest violin playing the saddest song for me. haha! Sorry dad! Actually my dad is one of the most compassionate people I know, but he also has an attitude that says, "Forget yourself and get to work!"

-Intermission-

4 hours later:

I started writing this post and then realized I better go and make dinner as Ryan will be home soon. However, as I was making dinner I got nauseated so I decided to take a Zofram before I started throwing up, only I should have waited, as I threw up but ten minutes after taking the pill, there goes $22 down the toliet, literally.

Anyway, I also wanted to take a moment and embarrass, brag, thank- whatever you want to call it- and tell you how wonderful my husband has been to me and the kids the last few weeks. He has been home from school the last four weeks from a break. And the whole time he did everything around the house; changed Avery's nasty diapers, did dishes, swept floors, kept up my overly obsessive vacuuming behavior for me, did laundry and much more! He played with the girls all day everyday which was wonderful as they love being with their dad but sad for me, as they are both daddy's girls now!

Sorry for this long and boring post, the pregnancy made me do it! hehe. I did forwarn you in the title, "Random thoughts from a pregnant women" so what did you expect? haha.