Expecting the Unexpected

I haven't blogged in so long, I almost forget how to. I'm at a lost for words right now, (I know, is that even possible?!) I start blogging and then delete it with frustration, thinking, "I am just not cut out to be a blogger." haha. (Poor me, I know.) I started writing about Christmas and how fun that was, but I am not in the mood to post that right now...I will soon. Then I thought, oh I could write about something cute Avery and Madi did the other day, but then think, no that's probably dumb. (As a parent you think everything your child does is cute!) I just haven't had the "blogging spirit" I guess. (If that's not a phrase, it is now.) Anyway, I am ready to come away from my pity party and I know once I start posting I will enjoy it...again.

So some of you know that we are expecting. Yep. Just found out two weeks ago. (Thanks!) Usually people don't say anything until after 12 weeks, just to make sure everything is ok and what not, but those of you that know me well, know me well enough to know, I am not too good at keeping surprises- surprises very long. haha. I can keep secrets, it's surprises I am not good at. Take Christmas for instance:

Me: "Hey honey, I got you this really cool gift!"


Ryan: "Oh yeah, what is it?"


Me: "I am not going to tell you! BUT I know you will like it cuz you said you wanted a new pair of sweats, but these ones are awesome cuz it says, Boise State down the side!"



See? Pretty pathetic, huh? Yeah...I am getting off on a tangent here...it's cuz I forgot how to blog. haha.

Anyway, we are expecting a baby. However, we were not expecting TWO babIES. Yes, we (ME) are pregnant with twins. (!!!!!!!!)

K, first we don't even have twins in my family anywhere or on Ryan's side. Second, we never gave it a second thought as to ever having twins cuz it was JUST never possible. (!?) So you can imagine my reaction when the nurse practitioner informed me for the 8th time, that yes, there are indeed TWO different babies/TWO heart beats and TWO sacs..? on the ultrasound, jaw dropping to the floor, tears spilling over without permission to do so, and the bawling continues as the nurse hands me kleenex after kleenex until the box is half gone. *Just add it to the bill.

Oh and then things go from bad to worse, I was sitting in the waiting room after, waiting to get my blood drawn, when some fool (ok, he was probably a super nice guy) decides it would be great to request a country song at that exact moment about how "anything is possible and anything can happen once..." That just made me cry even harder. People passing by probably thought, "oh dear, this poor girl isn't going to make it..."

I am still stunned. I feel like I just got punched in the stomach and I am still coming up short for air. I know twins isn't like unheard of, a lot of people and friends of ours have either had twins or are having twins, but honestly for me, I thought it was.

So here they are! The dynamic du-o! It's a pretty blurry picture, sorry. I took a picture of the picture. But you can see the TWO different sacs. Let's hope for a boy, so I can be done with pregnancy! Ryan wants to name them Luke and Laya (not really) if it's a boy and a girl, but we won't know what they are for another 10 weeks or so. We're hoping for at least one boy.